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'A Man's A Man'

Robert Burns

"Is there for honest poverty
That hings his heed and a' that
The coward slave we pass him by
We dare be poor for a' that
For a' that and a' that
Our toils obscure and a' that
The rank is but the guinea's stamp
The mands the gowd for a' that

What tho' on hamely fare we dine
Wear hoddin-gray and a' that
Gie fools their silks and knaves their wine
A mands a man for a' that
For a' that and a' that
Their tinsel show and a' that
The honest man tho' e'er sae poor
Is king o' men for a' that

Ye see yon birkie ca'd a lord
Wha struts and stares and a' that
Tho' hundreds worship at his word
He's but a coof for a' that
For a' that and a' that
His riband, star and a' that
The man o' independent mind
He looks and laughs at a' that

A prince can mak a belted knight
A marquis, duke and a' that
But an honest mands aboon his might
Guid faith he mauna fa' that
For a' that and a' that
Their dignities and a' that
The pith o' sense and pride o' worth
Are higher rank than a' that

Then let us pray that come it may
As come it will and a' that
That sense and worth o'er a' the earth
Shall bear the gree and a' that
For a' that and a' that
It's coming yet for a' that
That man to man the warld o'er
Shall brothers be for a' that
For a' that and a' that
It's coming yet for a' that
That man to man the warld o'er
Shall brothers be for a' that."

Time for a lengthy blog!

I’m having a productive day so I thought I would tell you about it so far which in itself is amazing, considering it’s only 12 o’clock just now. This morning I had to get up early and, with out fail, I couldn’t sleep as usual. I don’t know what it is but whenever I have to get up really early the next day my brain seems to think keeping me awake so I don’t miss my alarm is the best option. Sill brain! I thought I was going to be more tired than I am but I’m sure I’ll start to feel it all creeping up on me as the day rolls in. As I type I’m drinking whatever caffeine I have to hand so maybe that’s helping too.

The reason why I was up so early was I had an appointment to collect a form from the doctors, basically for all the vaccinations I may need for going to Japan, just to be on the safe side. Soon I will be immune to ALL of Japan! Hehe. ^^

Turns out though that I can’t finish the form until I know what region I’m going to so that will have to wait :/ Speaking of which I’m starting to get really impatient with the wait to find out the exact place in Japan I will be moving to. Not in a bad way, more like in the way a child is impatient for Christmas! But I digress.

The appointment only took a few minutes, much shorter than I had thought it would be and so I made my way about town just popping in on people and having a bit of banter (talk) at work and with anyone I generally met on my rounds. (Because I work at the local supermarket, I know a lot of the locals) I then visited work, although I missed the lady I wanted to talk to, I still found myself getting caught up in about a dozen conversations with people, while all the time ducking my boss, the one person I NEVER want to talk to hehe.

Then after that I made a hair appointment, my hair, as it stands, reaches about half way down my back and while that’s all well and good here, my hair is really thick and can cause my upper back to overheat XD (blah blah blah). I can just see it being such a burden in the already too hot for Emma Japan so I’m chopping about half of it off me thinks. *nods*

Then I had mail to post!!! ^^ ~ ♪ I forgot how much I adore sending letters and parcels J I’m going to try and make time when I’m far away to write letters back home, instead of just depending on email and face book. The internet is a lot quicker and easier but I love the grace and elegance of letter writing, it feels more refined. So I’m looking forward to that (^.^b

But then after all that was done it was still only 11 o’clock! So my little doll shoes and I decided to take a long stroll in the country :3 Again, making me feel all refined.

Hello feet! Let's go walking!

I decided to visit the cemetery again, I know it sounds morbid ‘cause none of my family is buried there but I used to come here all the time and when I go out for walks I always pass by it so I like to visit. The peace and quiet is so good for my mind, it calms it instantly and being surrounded by so many people, all be them dead, doesn’t make it a lonely place. I often find inspiration in places like this, wondering about the people there and what sort of lives they lead makes me think about my own characters and makes me question whether or not I feel I’ve made them believable as people. I also get a few name ideas when roaming around all the head stones. You must all think I’m a mad child ^^;; but I assure you I’m normal, just creative lol.

I remember coming here a lot when I was working on my main character, ‘Dontas’ (He's the gentleman you can see as my blog's background image just now ♥) and being here always brings back memories of him and makes me feel he’s awake again. Again, I swear I’m normal XD!

I also remember coming here one day to draw these beautiful head stones, the sun had just popped it’s head above the neighbouring hill so the lighting isn’t working in my favour but I hope you can see well enough to know why I chose to draw this one J

Again that sun makes seeing the detail hard, it’s a woman draped over a cross with cloth draped over them both. I love this one too ♥

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These ones are weathered and broken L I love the attention they get, someone has taken the broken pieces and stacked them back up to try and save their dignity. I imagine it’s really expensive to repair these old head stones L

This guy had to have a mention, MASTER BAKER!! hehe

This lady is my favourite, I’ve spent long, rainy days just staring at her until I swear my eyes twitch and it looks like she could come to life at any minute. It reminds me of the scene in Interview with the Vampire where Louis see’s the statue move and look at him. ♥

On my way home from the graveyard I pass by my old school which, as you can see, is closed and all bored off. The new school is at the other end of town now and this wonderful old Victorian building is to be made into flats I think. It always looked to me like it would be the creepiest place to be in alone but I wish I could look after it. It’s such a beautiful building. I really hope they don’t tear it down.
Seeing that old school always forces me to think about how the times, they be a changing! I feel helpless knowing there’s nothing at all I can do to stop it and make sure every last gem, like this building, is restored and kept safe. Things like this are our only link to that age these days and people just want new, shiny ugly modern buildings crowding the streets. There’s nothing wrong with modern, I’m just an old fuddy duddy at heart and prefer things that mark out history, they fascinate me, no end! *sigh*

All the while I was walking I was thinking about Japan and what stories I would have to tell them about our country and how we bury our dead in comparison to them but then I saw this little gate and it brought my thoughts straight back home ^^ I don’t know if you can see the little thistle design in the middle ♥ My heart will always be in Scotland. ♥

And now that all that is said and done I can’t help but feel very tired XD I just looked outside and you wouldn’t believe how sunny the sky is in the photo’s above because right now it’s blowing a gale and raining so hard! I will count my blessings tonight when I can’t sleep ^^

I must admit, I have a surge of inspiration but alas, no energy to roll with it L I will try writing something maybe? Perhaps I might even post it here! :O Should anything worth reading occur that is lol

I will leave you today with the music that is playing just now and a scene that has been coming to mind a lot lately~~~ ‘Cause there’s not knowing where I’m going J Tatties!

xxxx

Fitting my life into a suitcase...

Well….it’s currently….*checks time*…4:28am and I’m very much awake. I had a wonderful day today but as per things lately it’s got me thinking.

Firstly though, happy Friday the 13^th!! ^^ Although I have re-dubbed this day as C-day or Case-day hehe. In other words, today I went to Ayr for the day with mum to get my a suitcase and some clothes and other bits and pieces for my trip to Japan…although it’s not a ‘trip’, is it? As I’m trying to pack a few things tonight I have to keep reminding myself that I’m not 12 anymore and this isn’t me just packing for one of our family holidays down to the magical land of England. >.o!

I don’t know how many of you have done it but, trying to fit your life for the next year in a suitcase is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to try and do!

Plus, being in Ayr always makes me miss my flat and my friends and well, just being at Uni really. Not many people have good memories of my whilst at Uni and, to be honest, neither do I but at the same time, I’m really the only one that knows the reason for it. Or at least, that is what other people have lead me to believe. It’s the most annoying feeling having the regret of proper depression but it’s behind me and I’m afraid nothing else can be done to recover what has happened and what has been lost. I do really miss having my flat and my wonderful flatmates though. I just wish I realised how great everything was at the time in order to overlook the poison that was infecting my life and mind. But enough about him XD how dare the thought of him even be near us and this blog ^^ I made it for the recognition of this new chapter of my life and to celebrate all that it will achieve so, back to today ^^

Mum and I went to Ayr, like I said, I always love going shopping with mum and I treasure the time I have with her now J We bought my case, which is gorgeous lol, then we went for lunch!

It doesn't look like much XD and it wasn't but it was so tasty :) Mac'n'cheese with chips, nom!

Getting my carrot cake fix ♥

Then once lunch was eaten we went to look at some skirts and shirts, I got a few things but hated the thought of modelling them for my silly blog XD so I didn’t lol. However, after a small fortune was spent we went to WHSmith to buy some envelopes and a diary for mum and I noticed that manga is now being sold there XD gutted! I’m finally moving to the land of the rising manga and more and more places over here are selling it! Bloody typical! Anyway, I found this hiding in amongst the usual sugar manga pap that is Tokyo Pop…

♥!!!

The art work is gorgeous and L is my most favourite thing ever!!

However, even though it was only like £13-14, after spending what I had on shirts and stuff, I rally couldn’t justify buying it L so I had to put it back. Sooo gutted lol I also found THIS!!….

*swooon*

Just things that make me happy ^^ I find it all so interesting but hopefully soon I’ll be able to buy them all when I like J Japan has much of it to be had. Hehe.

My sorrows were soon drowned though by coffee!!!

Good old Cafe Nero and their adorable little cups ^^ This was ridiculously tasty ♥

So, after all that adventure we returned home and I started thinking about adding some things to my new case!

He's pretty ^^ What’s I like about him is his black on black floral pattern but then when you open him up he’s lined with deep purple!

For those people who do not know me I love this colour combination ^^ it’s my favourite, mostly because it reminds me of my original character, young Master Dontas ♥ So when I saw this case I knew it was the one lol! It’s almost like a coffin haha!! Makes me love it even more. But now comes to hard task of filling it with thing I ONLY NEED. It’s impossible v.v….so far its filled with books, dvd’s and photos I probably don’t need but certainly can’t live with out! We’ll see if that had to change though ^^;;;

Anyway anyway, I’ll leave you tonight with the image of the brooch mum bought for me today, it’s made of pewter so it wasn’t cheap! :o and I thank her for every penny of it’s worth because now it’s priceless J It’s a beautiful Celtic knot called an ‘Eternal Interlace’ and it will forever remind me of home ♥

xxxx

Christmas and a very New Year.

So that’s Christmas over L and the start of a new year fully begun. Although I was ill over Christmas I had a lovely time with the family ^^ It was sad to think that I might not be here for Christmas next year…I got to spend the new year watching Scottish T.V and seeing in the bells with all our traditions and some games on the wii. We had so much fun. Then I got to see my family who I don’t really get to see as often as I should so that was wonderful too. What a laugh we all had and what a massive, tasty dinner ^^
Talking to everyone about Japan is really starting to make some truths hit home, I’m starting to realise that it wont be long before I have to leave and just how much I’m going to miss my family and my home. I can only hope that the experience will be everything I hope and dreamed it would be so that missing everything I can’t take with me wont hurt as much. I feel an odd combination of brave and terrified XD
As much fun as new year and Christmas was I need to start looking forward now, I need to figure out what I ’need’ to take with me and pretty much trash everything else. I’ve dumped all my extra emotional baggage and now I need to start doing it with material things as well. The less baggage I have before I move the better I’ve decided. J
The only problem is, how do you decide what to take with you into your new life? I think I like the idea of travelling really light but that leaves an awful lot of my life before now to throw away. I have so many things of sentimental value in my room that I don’t have space for anything else…so giving it all up is proving difficult but it must be done. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve moved before but every time I do it feels like the end of something, even though this is more of a beginning. I’m probably rambling about it now I know but thinking like this helps ^^
I’ll leave you all with the reassurance that my Christmas and New Year was amazing and that I will miss it terribly should I not be here this time next year. I don’t have any photos as I was spending the time focusing on my family so here is the tradition Christmas cake my mum made in it’s three stages:

Stage one! Full of fruit and alcohol XD

Stage two! Baked!

After being baked the cake is fed with brandy for a few days before Christmas :3 hehe

And decorated! ^^ My brother was the decorator ♥

Hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year!! ^^